I don't know who reads this.. if anyone.
But I'm bored, and can't sleep.. so I will update.

I've had a heartbreaking few weeks.. merely 2 weeks after our third and final breakup.. Dustin has found a new girlfriend. It breaks my heart.. nearly as much as when he cheated on me. I haven't talked to him since the breakup. I no longer can say that we were in love, or that I love him.. becase "he" does not truly exist. The real Dustin is an emotionless shell of a human being.. a piece of shit that treated me like I was worthless garbage for way too long. My heart is spent...

In other news, my car is a moving junkyard now. My roommate Amber crashed the front into a pole of a carport and ripped off the bumper on one side.. blah to that. That was an awful night.. we locked my keys in my car after getting out to investiage.. with the car running. Dustin's friends helped us.. he sat inside his apartment. It was raining. It was absolutely terrible.

I work.. not as much recently as when I first started. The money is good enough though.. I made 90$ today for 7 hours of work.. although I was the closer which meant that I had to vacuum the whole restaurant and close down the pantry.. plus all the tables that walked in after 9 were mine... mind you, we're open until 11 on the weekdays.

I've been pretty stable emotionally lately.. I think the medicine is really working. Thank god.. because last night I had a broken heart.. I was a worthless human being. I was taking sleeping pills everyday, wasn't going to class, amongst the other awful things I was doing to myself...

I'm going to warped tour in less than two weeks with my three roommates Amber, Rozena and Cass. It's pretty much going to be a blast.. minus the part where I'm going to be spending money I don't really have and have had to take off 3 days of work.. ugh.

I need a boy to cuddle with at night.